cmps used to be fun.

i used to look forward to RS at the end of every tuesday and thursday ):


but now, it's just so hard to even talk to my groupmates.

okay, maybe it's just me. i know, i get pissed very easily when things aren't going the way i want them to, or when no one's listening.

(i really must lose this ditzy image, or everyone will continue to not pay attention.)

it's not that i mean to keep losing my temper at my group.

of course, i still love stella, and her funny ways.

i still love jolene, waiian and yishan for the happy times our group had, and the mad chionging, and how we always pulled through at the last minute.

but i just can't help getting so pissed at the three of them.

when they don't understand, and they don't listen, and they disregard what i say ("because she's joyce what")

i admit it, yes, i am very ditzy and blur at times. but what the hell, my opinions count too. sometimes im right, you know, and i get extremely irritated when i know im right, but the three of them just ignore me.

and when someone else realises im right, and says the exact same thing i said, they suddenly decide to agree with her.

argh.



and well, it's a trying time, i guess. MYAs are coming up this friday (!), which is two days away (!!)

but im still so worried about cmps.

and im so frustrated that we're not making progress, that we're doing exactly what we've been doing all along-- slacking around and waiting for the actual thing to come, before we start chionging like mad.

but i don't know how to handle it, and where to start.

im just not good at this ):


sigh. maybe i should just stop thinking, and stick to doing stupid, brainless stuff, like shopping.

it amazes me how i can think about shopping when MYAs are two days away and i haven't done my english compre, SS FA, history FA, chinese FA, chinese gong hans, si hans (note the s'es) and practice papers.